Oro~?

Sometimes, you can manage to hold your composure for the longest time.
Even though you go through a tough day, deadline's nearing for your assignment/homework, your friend's mad at you, you embarrassed yourself saying something silly, late for an appointment, and misunderstood, you still stand tall.

Then when the day quietens, and you start to do some stuff, then as if the world is bent on getting on you, even inanimate, lifeless things start to turn against you.

Your fuse blows (the physical, electrical one), and then some programs in your PC you want to use suddenly doesn't work as it should. Very soon you'll be slumped and broken. It's a terrible day isn't it?

Well, mine's not that exactly that bad. (^_6)
But anyways, things do go bad occasionally.
But God always has a purpose. I believe that strongly.

Anyway, as I write this blog, I have realised how much I missed what should be the most important thing in my daily life -
A consistent daily commitment to Jesus. I haven't been consistently having daily devotions.
Some how my time is always getting occupied with something else, sometimes unnecessary stuff. Anyway, I've decided tonight (more of this morning) to be consistent from the moment I finish this blog... [God help me!]

Btw, thanks for those who've posted comments. appreciate them.

I went to Chelsia's blog. She has a nice layout there. She also thought me how to add link to others.
I used to know some html, but now I've forgotten >.<
So I decide to look for my old files on htmling.... but *sniff *sniff, they're missing.
I guess they're on another hard drive. Rather tired to fix the spare drive now.

My Mp3 converter fail to work today T_T.
I want Blade format... I don't want Lame format. But the lame one works, but the sharp blade won't. Guess I have to settle for the Lame one then..... for now, until I fixed the problem.
[Anyone uses DigitalMusicConverter(DMC) and has the codecs for Blade? Please send me Blade codec if you have it. Post ur contact in "comment". thanks]

Oh ya, my final year project is starting to get a wee little force. Hope for all the best.
The realisation of SCARA is a must. *determine look* [if u can imagine one ;) ]

Till my next blog.
josh

1st Blog

Finally, I managed to start a blog.

I've been thinking of writing one a long time ago but never really had the discipline to do it. I used to have a journal when I was a kid, but never really followed up on it. Perhaps I was too playful and carefree to really write anything then.

Then, in my teens I write journals occasionally.

I don't know about others, but writing down your feelings and aspiration seems to be a bit awkward. Especially the really touchy ones like - who had a crush on, what’s your scariest thought or nightmare.

Anyway, I didn’t really feel comfortable writing all those down, so in the end I stopped. Sometimes, reading what I’ve written gives me goose bumps… Hahaha. It’s like “My goodness, did I ever dare to write that down?”

So why do I ever want to start a blog now? Now I’m asking that question myself… haha.

I guess at some time, nobody can bottle up everything. Maybe this is an avenue for me to stimulate my mind for something big. Who knows.
Well that’s my secret aspiration. Hehe
See. Isn’t it funny to have this kind of hope. Get what I mean?

This is getting kinda long.
Since this is my first entry, I guess it’s going to be long(for me anyway.
But I don’t think I’ll ever write this long other times. (maybe this isn't that long compared to others, but i seldom read other blogs anyway.)

Funny how writing in a diary differs from blogging. (for me)
In diary entries, I write speaking to myself.
But here, it seems I write for the purpose of directing readers to what I’m thinking.
More of writing a story for people to read than a personal journal.
But then, I suppose that's the entire purpose of blogging.

Anyway, it will mean I'm opening up myself to the world to see.
This means I can't simply write about secret feelings.. haha. I guess
I have to write in another secret blog that nobody knows about. (I won't tell you if I have one :-Þ)

Anyway, till my next blog.
josh.